By Diana Rogaris (@littlegentsstore)

Meetings, coffee, long hours, heels... that was my career life. The life that got me out of bed in the morning, the life that I bragged about, the media life that seemed to glamorous in my mind. That was until my son was born.

Diana's son

Diana's son

Nothing was going to change things - I would be able to balance everything, surely, I mean how hard could it be? Women have ben doing this for years!

I felt that admitting I was a mum to myself was almost losing part of me. It was an instant change the second I stepped back into work after a year of nappies, sleep deprivation, days in PJs covered with spit up – #mumlife!

Reality hit the second I walked back into my old building, it all came crashing down on me in one swoop. Which team does the “part-time mum” get allocated to? Which clients would be willing to work with someone that’s only around sometimes. The year I had taken off felt like I had lost four years in my career. After being moved four times in the space of two months I ended up working under a girl with at least five years less experience than I had.  I felt deflated, insignificant and just lost!

I had always been a key part of the team. But was I now 'team career' or 'team family life'?

I have had many different experiences over the last five years, some that I can laugh at and some that still bring me to tears. A roller coaster is an understatement. I had attended a girls high school with an inspiring female principal who talked a lot about the ‘glass ceiling’ and I never really understood what that meant back then. Today, it has a whole new meaning….

Diana and her two babes

Diana and her two babes

My journey continues, but I wanted to share a few things I have learnt and come to accept on this path, in the hope that this will perhaps help someone else out there who may find themselves in a similar situation.

1.     You win some you lose some – There were going to be meetings that I would miss because I was home with a sick child, and that’s ok! Work knows I have children and they had to know that life can sometimes be unexpected. I cannot feel guilty about that. I distinctly remember being at home with my son who had a temperature, and I had bronchitis, and still trying to manage a client phone conference - completely ridiculous, in hindsight!

On the flipside, I wouldn’t be able to attend every school reading day, or volunteer for all of the swimming lesson uniform changes. My son now understands that it doesn’t mean I love him any less.

2.     You are still you – it took me a long time to understand and value my worth as a mother and an employee. I wasn’t any less of the person I was before, if anything I had now learned a new patience, prioritising needs, and just breathing. I was managing a team of five, all very different staff members, all with different personalities and needs (a bit like a daycare!). I had compassion when it was required and tough when I needed to be.

3.     Me time – it’s what dreams are made of! I still need that morning five minutes to myself for a tea in the morning. If that means taking a later train to work or even allowing my son his iPad for five minutes then so be it! Selfish or not, it's what I need to be my best from the get go.

4.     Good and bad – not every day will be sunshine and rainbows. There are days I wish I had my wonder woman cape on and could fly to where I needed to be. Sometimes I will let people down, but it can’t be helped so I cannot beat myself up about everything. Will my son hate me for being five minutes late for pick up, or if I forget that it was silly sock day at school? If I need to reschedule a meeting to be better prepared, will the client mind? Will life go on…YES!

5.     Lastly, it's ok to say NO – I fell into a people-pleaser trap, of always trying to assist others. I would stay back that extra 10 minutes to help someone else sort out their problem, or over volunteer at school so I felt involved with what was going on. I have learned to say no. 'No' ensures that I leave on time to race off for school pick up, no to a play date every now and again means I get more one on one time with my son and no to a rigid schedule.

Diana's two

Diana's two

So do I have it all figured out? Hardly. However I am trying my best, and every day is a new day.

 

Posted
Authorme-oh-my!